It is Wednesday and that means I will do as I promised Here and write a blog for you guys.
I did not have much inspiration myself so I went to the Daily Post site to see what the one-word daily prompt was and today it was the word ‘gray’ (or ‘grey’. That depends on whether you’re American or British I believe)
This morning I woke up, not feeling great. I struggle with various mental problems and some days I wake up feeling like the happiest person in the world and the other day I feel like I don’t deserve to live anymore. Today is towards the latter one. It is one of those days where I wake up and do not want to eat, talk, draw…basically I just want to sit and cry my eyes out because of this heavy, sad feeling in my whole body. I think today’s one-word prompt really suits my feeling.
Unfortunately, it is one of those ” down days ” as I call them and I am not able to see and count my blessings today, I don’t feel confident even though I know that I am a smart, talented, beautiful young lady who has a lot of privileges other people do not have.
I feel gray.
That does not mean that I will just actually go sit down and bawl my eyes out.
I got up, showered, made some coffee for my mum and got dressed. I even put on some make-up because I’ve got a visitor today.
My mental issues don’t define me. My mental issue(s) don’t get to decide who I am.
I will not let that feeling get me down.
And here I am, writing this story. For me, that in itself is already quite the victory because it means that I am stronger than that little voice in my head telling me that I am not good enough. I will go about my day and do the things the little demon inside me tells me I am not good enough to do to prove her wrong.
I conquer my world.
What I really want you to know is that I hope that you also find the strength to get up every day, no matter how hard it is. And even when you don’t: it is okay to not be okay. It is okay to stay in bed and it is okay to bawl your eyes out for no other reason than just that damned feeling you woke up with. Even I have those kind of days.
And that’s okay.
Just know that there is sunshine behind the dark clouds and that things will get better. Put work into your own self and you will definitely reap what you have sown. For some that will take a week, for others a month or even a few years. Everyone has their own pace and everyone walks their own ways in their own way. Let no one tell you otherwise.
You are loved, amazing, beautiful. You are okay. Be who you want to be and chase your dreams.
And the most important thing of all: You are not alone.
Have you struggled with mental issues? Or are you still struggling with them? Let me know! Maybe I can help you with a few kind words. I would love to because that is actually what I hope to do with this blog: Make people feel a bit better.
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Hopefully you have a nice day, thank you for reading this post~
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Lots of Love,