Little bit of a delayed article here. Sorry! I had too much other things to do last Wednesday to sit down and type. I had a gig with my theatre group. It went so incredibly well that we were all flabbergasted! Nobody forgot his or her lines and no wardrobe malfunctions! It was awesome and I am Mucho Mucho proud of The Understudies. ❤ (hopefully they’re alright with me using our group picture for my article. If any of the Understudies are reading this and you’re not okay: tell me)
I didn’t really know what to write about Thursday or Friday, but today I did so here I am, typing something for you to read.
I went to my coach on the 8th December and I learned a lot about hypersensitivity. She told me about how my brain literally works different that most people’s do. I also learned that where ‘normal’ people only register 4 out of 10 things from their environment, I register all 10. That means that I get tired more often and faster than anyone else. As a result, I need to take more breaks and need to recharge more often. Unfortunately, one of the main factors that make me lose my energy are people. Since I am currently studying at a university, that means that I am surrounded by a couple of thousand people all the time. As a result, I get exhausted really, really fast and the amount of information I have to process is huge so that drains me even more. All of this make me sometimes unable to join my friends when they go to an event.
Now I’ve stumbled upon a thing that I really struggle with: Not being able to join my friends when they invite me to go somewhere, simply because I am tired.
I know that my friends know that I don’t decline because I dislike them, because I love my friends and when I am able to come I do so with much enjoyment. But it is still quite hard when you know your friends are out there, and you are the only one sitting at home sipping tea simply because you are different. It makes me feel even more different and at times it also makes me feel lonely.
I also am not always able to explain the people surrounding me what is wrong and why I am unable to do a certain task. Not everyone knows and I hate telling people because I am afraid that when I do tell them, that they will think I only act the way I do because I want attention. Which is most certainly not the case. I really wished that I could just experience those 4 out of 10 instead of 10 out of 10. I really do experience pain in my body when I am tired, I really do think different because my brain simply functions differently and Yes, I cannot carry out the same amount of tasks a day as anyone else can.
I also just hope that I help and encourage others to break their silence about how they feel and just involve their surroundings. When I started doing this, I found a lot of support from the people around me. Whenever I say that I can’t go to an event now, people understand why. I have also had people telling me that my articles made them feel less lonely because I described exactly what they felt too.
The more I learn about myself, the more I involve my loved ones and friends in the process, the easier it becomes for me.
Just break your silence and find someone you trust. It’s easier when you’re not alone and have someone to talk to.
Thank you for reading and I hope that I helped at least one person. Don’t forget to check out my social media pages!
’till next time!
Lots of Love,
It’s almost christmas! so here is a christmas song 🙂